Thoughts on Healing

The following is from my readings this morning. There have been so many good ones this past week or so. This one from this morning was simply too good not to share.

From Jesus Calling by Sarah Young:
I am a God who heals. I heal broken bodies, broken minds, broken hearts, broken lives, and broken relationships. My very Presence has immense healing powers. You cannot live close to Me without experiencing some degree of healing. However, it is also true that you have not because you ask not. You receive the healing that flows naturally from My Presence, whether you seek it or not. But there is more-much more-available to those who ask.
The first step in receiving healing is to live ever so close to Me. The benefits of this practice are too numerous to list. As you grow more and more intimate with Me, I reveal My will to you more directly. When the time is right, I prompt you to ask for healing of some brokenness in you or in another person. The healing may be instantaneous, or it may be a process. That is up to Me. Your part is to trust me fully and to thank Me for the restoration that has begun.
I rarely heal all the brokenness in a person’s life. Even My servant Paul was told, “My grace is sufficient for you,” when he sought healing for the thorn in his flesh. Nonetheless, much healing is available to those whose lives are intimately interwoven with Mine. Ask, and you will receive.”
Psalm 103:3; James 4:2 (KJV); 2 Corinthians 12:7-9; Matthew 7:7

Update

A huge thank you to all who have been praying for me and for the arrangements that have needed to be made/confirmed.

In way of an update:
-I found out it is fine for me to go ahead and start the Pain Management Program 8/29/11. I will be in Omaha for three weeks for it. I called UNMC (University of Nebraska Medical Center) to confirm this will work and they are working on room arrangements.
-I have more endoscopy this coming week and thus will miss most of a day of work. (Because of both procedure and sedation.)

Prayer requests:
-that the fatty acid protocol I have been working on will cooperate and allow us to move forward with actual analysis. There are people who can do the work in my absence-provided the protocol is ready.
-that I am able to get enough done this next week to be able to leave things for 3 weeks without worrying about anything.

Praise:
-answered prayer regarding timing for the pain management program!
-a sister who is able to come back with me this week and take me to and from the scope appointment.

Random Thoughts

No rhyme or reason to the following...just things I have been thinking about. Please do not judge me based on the chaotic list below!

One year ago today I had been evacuated from my apartment by boat due to the severe flooding. I am so grateful for the generous hospitality of family and friends! Also, for the drier weather this year. =)

Two years ago today I had moved to Iowa three days previously and was reviewing last minute things and then relaxing by crocheting before taking the dietetic registration exam the next morning. (I passed!)

Have to be at the hospital early in the morning for some testing…hoping it gives some insight and answers. (Won’t know results until next week.)

Thinking: 2 years ago I was preparing for a major exam the next morning. Now I am contemplating medical testing in the morning. I think I would rather take another board exam or a test for school than undergo yet another medical test...ready for a break. (And potentially facing more testing depending on how my recalcitrant body responds to a current medication trial.)

Super tired. First day without a nap in awhile.

Feeling like everything is out of control...waiting on others before I can proceed-with anything.

Grateful that when I am overwhelmed and things seem crazy and out of control, that God is there. He knows how I feel. He still has everything under control. All I need to do is simply trust. However, while simple, this is not easy.

UNMC Update

I had another appointment at UNMC (University of Nebraska Medical Center) this week. This was an evaluation for the Pain Management Program. I was informed afterward that I do meet qualifications for the program and they think they can help me better manage the pain and to become more effective and efficient. I would need to be in Omaha for 3-4 weeks depending on how details work out. Housing is provided on the UNMC campus. I was excited after seeing more of the program. This really seems like it might work. This was an encouraging answer to prayer! Now, the challenge and prayer request is figuring out scheduling on my end in light of their available openings. All is in God’s hands. He will work out scheduling as is best. I must trust Him even while working to coordinate, figure things out.

Resting

The following is from my quiet time this morning.

Jesus Calling by Sarah Young
“When things seem to be going all wrong, stop and affirm your trust in Me. Calmly bring these matters to Me, and leave them in My capable hands. Then, simply do the next thing. Stay in touch with Me through thankful, trusting prayers, resting in My sovereign control. Rejoice in Me-exult in the God of your salvation! As you trust in Me, I make your feet like the feet of a deer. I enable you to walk and make progress upon your high places of trouble, suffering, or responsibility.” Job 13:15 (NKJV); Psalm 18:33; Habakkuk 3:17-19 (AMP)

Job 13:15 (NKJV) “Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. Even so, I will defend my own ways before Him.”
Psalm 18:33 (NKJV) “He makes my feet like the feet of deer, And sets me on my high places.”
Habakkuk 3:17-19 (AMP) “Though the fig tree does not blossom and there is no fruit on the vines, [though] the product of the olive fails and the fields yield no food, though the flock is cut off from the fold and there are no cattle in the stalls, Yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will exult in the [victorious] God of my salvation! The Lord God is my Strength, my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds' feet and will make me to walk [not to stand still in terror, but to walk] and make [spiritual] progress upon my high places [of trouble, suffering, or responsibility]! For the Chief Musician; with my stringed instruments.”

My thoughts:
This is so encouraging and appropriate. It feels like I am problem-solving all aspects of my life. I also struggle to always trust God fully and never doubt. Doing the next thing has been a theme for me this year as things have not fallen into place as anticipated. I have learned to let go of my plans and agenda and accept God’s plans and agenda for me. When things do not cooperate, I move on and do the next thing I am able to do. I have let go of planning the future out in detail. I still have goals and dreams and am still working toward them, but I have no defined time frame. Instead, I am doing things as they come and as I have strength. He gives strength as needed for the next step He sets before me. Learning to follow step-by-step is not easy when I have always preferred to know the full plan, end destination, and all details. He reminds I do know the end destination-eternity with Him! What more could I possibly ask? He gently leads me in His perfect ways and only asks that I trust Him in absolute surrender to his will. There is no cause or foundation for fear or doubt. He is faithful and loves me in spite of my failures.