I would greatly appreciate prayer for the drive to Omaha tomorrow for an appointment at UNMC. I have not driven this far in over a year...and am not doing so well at present. I would also appreciate prayer for wisdom for the physician. All is in God's hands. He is the great Physician and I must rely on Him and not on human resources, while still allowing Him to work through human resources.
Quick update (and additional prayer request): my health (or lack thereof) is continuing to present ongoing challenges. The most recent ones have resulted in quite a bit of testing-all of which has come back normal. This is good! Especially since there was potential for serious issues with some of this. However, we still do not know what really is going on-just that it does not appear to be anything serious even though I am not doing very well at present. I am learning ever more and more of trusting fully in the Lord for strength to make it through each moment. (Significant fatigue and weakness have been increasing over the past few weeks. I literally cannot do normal activities without much more effort than usual.)
There has been a lot of literal crying to the Lord for strength for the next step, next moment, just making it a few more minutes...trying to survive each day-one small piece at a time. I feel as if I am falling ever further behind in everything. For someone who prefers to plan things out, keep things under control, there is no plan and no semblance of control at present. I do not deal well with limitations. Introducing new ones one top of previously existing ones that I had still not fully accepted yet is not going very well. I am trying to take a step back and reevaluate priorities, tasks, responsibilities and what is essential versus what can be cut out until strength and energy levels come back. I am praying for wisdom in this.
Interesting observation: I have been reading in Job lately while reading through the Bible again this year. I can identify with him in so many ways, yet not so much in others. It has been good to pick out the treasures of wisdom and joy even in the midst of great suffering. God is faithful in all He does. There is a purpose in everything. I do not need to understand His purpose, simply accept that He has one and cheerfully submit.
Choosing to rejoice in God's goodness and faithfulness even in the midst of my own weakness!
I'm praying for you, Stephanie. May the Lord give you peace and rest as you trust in Him!
ReplyDeleteLove in Christ,
Annie
Been thinking and praying for you as we travel through some health issues (mine) as well. We are so behind on updating the prayer group and "intend" to do so soon. I have a "routine" colonoscopy July 19. We continue to trust the Lord that all any of us experience in this world, is for His glory and nothing else really matters. Acceptance isn't always as immediate as I would like it to be, but refocusing on the Lord and getting my sight straight helps! Continuing in prayer for your Mom as well. luv in Christ, ken
ReplyDeleteThank your for your prayers! The trip went pretty well and I felt the appointment itself went very well. I had a really rough night after getting back and am still struggling with increased pain levels since the trip. I am hoping to get a better update posted soon...but, lots going on with health and work, etc...
ReplyDeleteKen, praying for you and the testing. Hope the colonoscopy results are normal. Colonoscopies are not that bad (even the prep is not so bad though admittedly worse than the scope itself).